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Name: Kerry
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Birthday: 1/5/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: I ♥ God.
My life is really in a jumble right now, but I am trying to make the best of it, I guess. I am living with Bipolar, and with a past that I am not really proud of. I stuggle with many different things, but I have learned that with God, all things are possibly. Not necissarily easy, but possible.
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Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
4/1/2005
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| I think I am going to delete my xanga.... or maybe just not use it.
I've had it for over four and a half years, and I think the memories on here are, well, memories that no longer need dwelling on.
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| I am really getting tired of negative, pessimistic people.
I mean, I can understand people worrying and be anxious when something big is approaching or happening. But, the Bible says to be anxious for nothing, but pray about everything! But, it is understandable to be a little uneasy about certain situations.
I have recently cut ties with three of my best friends due to walking in issues such as cutting, eating disorders, sex, alcohol, drugs, etc. You make think that's harsh, but that's where I am at right now. I am in recovery. I am leaning on God for support, not my old issues.
I informed all of my friends that I wouldn't talk to them unless they wanted to change. I told them I would be praying for them, and if they decide that they want to get better, that I will be their number one cheerleader, and I would help them every step of the way. However, I wasn't going to surround myself with triggering people and situations. I wasn't going to be someone's counselor. I will be your friend, I will talk to you if you are struggling. But do NOT come up to me with crap like "Well... I cut 45 times last night." or "I lost 5 more pounds!" No, I refuse to listen to ANY of that anymore.
I am a good friend, regardless of what opinions may be formed now. But, I will no longer condone walking in issues.
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| I have court tomorrow. The last time I went to court was when I was 16.... when I was a minor. Now, I am 19.... and I am scared shitless. I know I deserve to go to court, and I know I have consequences to pay for my actions.... I just really don't want to go to jail OR lose my license. | | |
| I am not sure how to handle all of this stress. I have been doing so well, and everyone can see a change in me; I can see a change in me. But right now, every single thread of hope is becoming unraveled. I can't tell anyone-- I can't disappoint them. I don't know how to positively cope with stress. I've been praying incessantly, reading the Word a lot... but I'm in a world of quick fixes. I need a quick fix; well, I feel like I do. I can't afford any drugs (part of the issue-- money, not drugs), so that's out. Can't afford alcohol, and none is kept in the house. So, now all I feel is left is either cutting, B&P, or sex. God, give me strength. | | |
| I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk the path, I'll run the race
And I will never be the same again.
I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk the path, I'll run the race
And I will never be the same again.
Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again.
Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff,
And let the flame burn to glorify Your name There are higher heights, there are deeper seas,
Whatever you need to do, Lord do in me.
The Glory of God fills my life,
And I will never be the same again.
Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again.
Sweep aways the darkness, burn away the chaff
And let a flame burn to glorify Your name.
Fall like fire, soak like rain,
Flow like mighty waters, again and again.
Sweep away the darkness, burn away the chaff,
And let a flame burn to glorify Your name.
I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk the path, I will run the race
And I will never be the same again.
And I will never be the same again.
And I will never be the same again. | | |
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